As I mentioned previously, this morning we said good bye to our Lab/Beagle mix. Last year, we said good-bye to our Beagle. Both rescued, these dogs entered our lives in 1996 and 1997 respectively. It's been a very long time since I slept without a dog in or next to my bed (when I was at home), and I think it still has not hit me. Thank you for all your thoughts.
Being the people we are, in this house, dogs are family. Are they on a par with my children? No (but they certainly think they are). Still, we made an emotional attachment and a commitment. We took our dogs with us to Germany and back (the only two times in their lives they were ever in a crate), and nursed them through old age. There were some difficulties, but I would not have given up having my puppies for anything.
Magic, deteriorated rapidly because he had degenerative arthritis in his legs and spine, which were exacerbating by running, jumping and playing ( in his mind he was still four). Since we didn't realize how ill he was, I had lately been investigating dog rescue and adoption. I figured he could use a friend and we were used to having two dogs. The dog in question at the time, Trevor, is shown here.
I know I need time to grieve and adjust. I also know that none of my dogs can be replaced, any new dog would be an addition to my family. I know well that there is no such thing as a free pet, and that living on a fixed income, dog care is a definite budget category. Still, after the holidays, I will be looking for a new family member. Whether Trevor will still be available, I don't know. I do know I need a pet (read dog) in my life.
So, I'll take a holiday break. I'll adjust to missing my baby, and deal with the hole he leaves in our lives. I'll also look forward to bringing a new family member home.